Agape Communities

I spent a lot of energy and time building a stronger box and a more superficial life. It was both hilarious and shocking when I began to realize that it’s not working. I had a very exclusive view of God.  Frankly, God was someone that loved me because He had too but really didn’t like me…which was a miserable hiding experience. The worst thing you can have on that front is a moody bipolar God.  Don’t catch him on a bad day. Like an alcoholic dad.  I began to read more and more about Jesus.  That was good friction. I had great conversations with friends.  Sometimes it pissed me off.  It was always good. I began to realize that I had believed a God that would never be satisfied with me. He would say He loved me (who know if it’s real) and then roll his eyes in disapproval as He turned away. What’s enough? That’s the question I asked most of my life.  It’s religion at it’s absurd best. It was never enough.  What’s most incredible to me was coming to realize that I had “exchanged the truth about God for lies”. It’s the only god I knew, and I knew it well, but…. it didn’t work. 

[Excerpt from Blessed Friction by Brad Hill. Also available at Amazon]